Faltering.

i know i wished you happiness.
i know i gave you my vote of assurance.
i know i told others and myself that i will be alright.

but in all honesty, i'm feeling terrible.

Her Heart On Her Sleeves

i found it quite ironic that you asked if i was ok.
cos i really wasn't.

yet i couldn't bring myself to let you know.
cos if i did, i could lose all.
you and the friendship.

maybe you weren't so oblivious after all.
you managed to guess it right.

what could i do?
i wanted to know why it would be complicated, you wouldn't say.
did it matter?
of course it did.
but in front of you, i couldn't admit it.

i guess i'm a coward.
i don't dare to take that leap.

so now i cry alone.
who's to blame anyway?
no one but me.

cos i choose to smile and hope the best for you.

Cruising Under the Moonlight

mmm.

i've been getting lazy to block again. -.-

anw, weekdays are mundane.
work, work and more work.
ot almost everyday. -.-
hence, nothing much to look forward to.
'cept maybe the occasional dinner out.

then again, twelve's busy tooo. ):


miss my twelvers. ):

After exams.

whooo. so the exams are over! hohoho.

more or less scooted straight to dee's birthday chalet to help her prepare. (:
well, i guess i'd say the party really went pretty well.

i'm not too good with words, plus this is reeaally pretty lateLATE.
but anyhow.

happy 21st hatch, sissy darl. (:
i must say we've come a long way since sec 1/1. haha.
if i'm not wrong, you may even have started out disliking me =/
but with twists in fate, i really would say i'm sosoSO blessed you turned out to be more than just a classmate and friend.
in your own words, you're "as precious as a sister can be".
and i know this is just the beginning of another phase in all our lives.
that invisible bond between us twelve, i believe, will stay as strong. in fact, i know it in my bones we'll stick around. (:


mmmm. (:

okay so i've started work at canon.
strong company culture there really. it tends to be abit stifling. =/
rah! and i cant slack around or surf the net ):

pretty scary cos though i'm temp staff, i'm supposed to take over the duties of this colleague who's leaving. (ohh she's super fun, a pity she's leaving.)
anyway, i have like less than 2 weeks to master everything before she disappears.
and it doesnt really help since she's the only handling all the stuff in that scope.
so it means after she's gone, i'm left holding the fort.
and if anything goes wrong, my butt's on the line. =/

anyway, need to scoot.
else i'll be late.

oh yeah. and there's so NO face given for being even a minute late. ):
URGH.


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痴心绝对
李圣杰

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲